You were given the tools to thrive! Don't live your whole life on holy crutches. Don't be a lifelong spiritual welfare recipient. Don't be a lazy spiritual beggar, no different than a child constantly asking a parent for money and handouts. God's prayer-line is not a wheel of fortune or a lottery for the indolent. "God helps those who help themselves," may not be in the Bible, but it sure makes sense to me. Faith doesn't work if you don't even believe it. Moses couldn't part the Red Sea if he didn't even show up. Show up in life. Believe. Have faith. Show up for yourself. Believe in yourself. Have faith in yourself! Don't you realize who and what you are? Why do you deny your own incredible power? Who convinced you of the lie that you are weak?
